potato, potatoe, pillow???

My ladies def have a mind of their own and this morning was no different. My wonderful husband had gone down to their room last night to see about fixing something before they went to bed and left behind a couple new objects. Now I personally didnt seem the excitment in these new objects I mean there was just a couple of pillows now on their floor that were once on the hall bench. But the ladies this morning were head over heels for these pillows. So much so that they hauled them up the flight of stairs to the livingroom and walked around the house before breakfast carrying them. They were thrilled to have found these new treasures :)

Ahh, Mommahood.

When are you really you? Im finding on this motherhood journey that there are moments when I feel like my true self. You know the person that you talked to for hours in your head or out loud alone for years....the one that has been with you your whole life....yep the YOU. Times I feel like true me... when I am outside in the mornings, watering my flowers while my twin daughters are playing. when Im showing them a flower for the first time or pointing out birds that fly overhead. before everyone in my house wakes in the morning and all I hear is the hummm of the baby monitor, the coffee machine coming to life and the sigh of a puppy waiting for his morning breakfast. during naptime when I get a free kiddo moment to workout and feel the sweat of effort. when Im painting or sewing a new craft. when I put on a pretty skirt. when my husband says I love you and I didnt have to ask or say it first.... when are you really you?

Ahh, Mommahood.

Who am I now?

My last post was back in Feb. and I talked about changes...okay, I mentioned changes quickly. I dont think I was really ready or fully prepared for what that meant. I dont think anyone ever really is. Do you have to hit rock bottom to realize its time to look at your life and the choices your making? Is there a lightbulb that just goes off? I dont know, for me it was a shove fromm myself and family. I looked at my children and thought what kind of example are you being? you can only change yourself, so focus on you and your choices, stop worry about this or that. Make time for you, put you first at least part of the time. So that is what Im trying to do. Whoa is it hard.

Ahh, Mommahood.